July 23rd, 2014
If I hold on much longer,
I might break my hands.
I must respect the space you have, but you
tread in my lands.

This quicksand,
it pulls me under,
it pulls me underneath her.
And I’m leaning how to live
with my unintended consequences;
you’re busy jumping fences,
afraid to stay in one spot for too long.
The Story So Far, “Quicksand”
July 22nd, 2014

I don’t have my period right now, but can I just ask one question?

WHY WOULD YOU MAKE “HEAVY FLOW” PADS WITHOUT WINGS??

Like, aside from the entire bottom of the pad being sticky, I feel like the wings are what really holds the pad down. Once I fold those bad boys under, I know that shit ain’t goin’ nowhere. It’s like extra insurance.

A few months ago (like, last year, I don’t even know), I was at school and had NO pads during a particularly bloody week, so I scrounged up my last few dollars and went to Target and bought a 32-count box of Always Infinity pads. Always has always (hah!) been my favorite brand, and I use both the normal-sized (yellow) and medium-sized (green) pads. Imagine how upset I was to get all the way to my dorm only to discover that the pads HAD NO WINGS. WOW, MY MISTAKE, I WASN’T AWARE THAT I WAS ACTUALLY SHOPPING IN SATAN’S WAREHOUSE. I cried. I sat on the floor, literally in a pool of my own blood, and cried.

Fuck you, wingless pads. You have no business costing $7+ when you haven’t even convinced me that you’re going to stay put. Now I have an almost entire box of these perfectly good (in someone’s opinion, certainly not mine) pads sitting in my drawer at home. It’s not like I’m just gonna throw them away, because I spent money on them, but who the fuck really wants to use wingless pads, especially during a “heavy flow”?

Go sit in the corner, Always, and think about what you have done.

*And don’t tell me to “just use tampons.” I don’t fucking like tampons, okay? I think that they’re really gross, and just, no.

sailorshawty:

Bowie is literally an art period dream. 

Neo-Classic Bowie may have taken my concert/show virginity (happy 13th birthday to me!), but New Romantic Bowie will always be my secret lover. (I’m looking at you, Jareth.)

(Source: copano, via lilablackbird)

I cannot be your friend. Not when I want to get an apartment with you, not when I want to share a life with you, not when I want to be your wife. So, don’t you dare sit there in your cum-stained underpants, hiding behind a keyboard in your grandparents’ attic, telling me that you need time to figure out what you want, and expect me to be waiting for the day that you come to your senses. I deserve a real man.

July 20th, 2014
I have love in me the likes of which you can scarcely imagine, and rage the likes of which you would not believe. If I cannot satisfy the one, I will indulge the other.
Mary Shelley
July 19th, 2014
This is how you can tell that I am not alright. I am an obsessively neat and organized person, yet I simply do not care about this explosive mess in my bedroom.

This is how you can tell that I am not alright. I am an obsessively neat and organized person, yet I simply do not care about this explosive mess in my bedroom.

Dr. Manhattan is my spirit animal.

Dr. Manhattan is my spirit animal.

And I dropped to my knees,
hung my head, and cried.
Bruce Springsteen, “Downbound Train”
July 18th, 2014
THEN FUCKING HELP ME. I’M PLEADING FOR GUIDANCE AND ASSISTANCE.

THEN FUCKING HELP ME. I’M PLEADING FOR GUIDANCE AND ASSISTANCE.

(Source: emildeville, via lilablackbird)

I hate the path my life has taken. I have ignored so many chances for good things to happen to me. I have fucked up so many good opportunities. I have resisted growing up and behaving the way everyone else my age is behaving because I have been afraid.

And now I want to be a normal 23-year-old. I want to drive a car and have a job, I want to commute to my school, and I want to live with my boyfriend in our own little apartment.

But none of these things are happening, not because I don’t want them badly enough, but because I can’t do them alone and nobody is on my side.

I want a do-over.